Stayed up all of last night and thismorning cleaning up my sister. She got drunk for the first time and ended up spewing up all over the place. Slept with her incase she spewed again...she did, about twenty times. I didnt end up going to my own bed until 4:30am. I guess its a learning experience for her and me too. I dont want to do that. Though it was quite amusing when i was hoding the bucket infront of her and i asked. "now now sara will you ever be doing this again?" She lifted her head, spew dribbling down her chin then said drunkenly "yeaeeh" with both thumbs up.
Other than that it was a little annoying. Man if i wasnt there she'd have fallen asleep in her own vomit. She doesnt even appreciate it that i was there for her. She came out thismorning in a shitty mood then glaired at me and called me a little shit. I wasnt expecting that since i washed her and dressed her and held a bucket infront of her whilst she slept. Every so often she'd lurch foreward and who wiped the vomit off her chin? i think that you can figure that out. I did my best, i'm only 14 and i had no clue what to do but she couldn't even thank me at all.

Oh well i'll get over it. next time she gets drunk, i'll let her vomit all over her bed. I will let her sleep in it. I wont change her covers ordo her dirty laundry. She'd do the same to me. i just know it.

Okay this school is really pissingf me off. I cant handle the pressure. I spent hours tonight talking to varmy and such on bowie.net. Making a plan to move over to america. Run away. seems like a fairy tale now but i want to make this real. As long as i can find a place to stay with someone. People laughed at me about it. I'll show them what i'm made of. i want to go down in history! i want to be know for something. i may aswell start here! i hate boring life. I'll see if i can get Hann to come. i doubt she will but no harm in trying. Hopefully i can figure something out before october. Hah so i gotta get my work done as much as i can before then. Going to korea in september. After that i'll make my break and head off somewhere. Always dreamt of an adventure. Where am i going sitting on my ass and failing school? I may aswell so something worth my time. Get away from school and everything. Gotta make an effort to kick clinton in the balls before i go. Andif you know who i am. Please dont tell my family. Much appreciated. Now its wayyyy early i better go to bed. Had fun at Bowie
s concert. Thoughts and prayers go out the the young man who perished at the Miami show. I just hope it wasnt painful. *sigh* better be going to bed now. Wish me luck.
~!Marysian

Back to medication.
I stopped using it in year seven when the disease went away. (when i say disease i mean that it can't be fully cured) it has been sneaking up on me these past few weeks and now its getting out of hand. To those who don't know what it is (99%) it is a disease i get on my head benieth my hair and on my hairline. I don't know what it is called (mum calls it mange cause she is a crude one she is)
but i have this medication stashed away in my drawer from grade five. Lucky it isn't out of date yet. Ohh well.
What happened today? Well my muscles are a tad better but my headaches are as bad as they usually are. I started to re write some of a fic i wrote in year seven. It is going well and will most likely be posted up tomorrow night.
Not much else except that all my projects are due next week. So at least it will all be over and done with very soon.

My arms are aching! firstly my muscles were all bruised after being attacked, i could hardly pick up a fork at dinner for mums birthday =(.
But what made it worse was that today i was forced to go out to Nunawading to go rock climbing. I had no clue where it was or how to get there. so i jumped on a train that ended up at blackburn and wouldnt go further. ugh so i cught the train back to box hill then the trains stuffed up and i ended up in Laburnum somewhere. After about 2 hours of searching i finally end up at nunawadding station just to realise that i have no idea where to go from there. So i start to walk in one direction. I end up bumping into Phoebe. It just happened that she was also an houR and a half late. What a coencidence! but that was good. We ended up going into some leasure centre then climping through a hole in someones fence then we got there. Then at rock climbing my arms were aching to buggery. Then i fell off the wall and my belayer let go of the rope. I smacked into the rock twice nearly breaking my ankle and brusing my ribs. Then to top it all off, she let go all together and i fell about a metre onto my ass.

Ugh!

Then after that i caught the train back to glenferrie and bought some 'meat chips' that was what they were called. they tasted pretty good.

After we got back to school, we had to leave immedeately to go to Scotch College (a boys school) All the girls (being the sluts they are) pulled the teshirts out and rolled the skirts up and socks down UGH! then a girl (Miranda) she took her glasses off and asked me if she looked hot. I laughed at her and yelled out "oh is that the one you fancy" as a joke. Then she turned around and punched me in the jaw. My jaw was then dislocated for about half an hour. They all took it way to seriously! She better not expect me to be giving her my math sheets anymore.

Then on my way home i got a very pleasant surprise, Hannah and Vicky were waiting for me =) i was so happy and excitied. I ran over to the park where they were and they gave me an apple on the end of a pen, it had been cooked on a bbq. I cherished it for a few mins then we threw it over the back fence of someones house. Then hannah went off to go to the toilet. it was locked so she went behind a tree. Then realised that behind the tree there was a hole in the wall going into a boys school. Hannah's ass was in full view of about 5 boys and 2 teachers on the oval. We laughed our heads off after that. it was brilliant. Then we did this thing where we were trying to pass out by chocking eachother, Hannah grabbed vicky round the neck and she farted

Then she laughed

Then she sneased.

Then snot shot out of her nose in a big bubble!

I laughed so hard that i rolled down the hill and died. It was BRILLIaNT!

Then i came home eventually after dropping them off home. I hope they didn't get in any shit though *hugs hannah and chuu*
And here i am. lying on the floor of the 'study' in large ammounts of pain.
oh well
~Marysian






 

Well school isnt any better now. though i am a little happier because i just found out i have to opportunity to go to korea with my korean teacher (ms hong) she is very nice to me and favours me lots.
I am doing really well in korean and i am loving it to bits. Though i wish i could be this passionate about english and maths...ugh The teachers SUCK. My most hated subject right now is History. Mainly because the teacher dislikes me. I've NEVER done anything to make her be angry with me. On the contrary! i'm usually everyones fav student O_o;; its kinda strange. I've never backmouthed her or broken any school rules HECK i've only forgotten to hand in one peice of work. She can't hate me for that! geez! Though i like the other teachers, i must say my fav is definately Ms Hong. Though half the time i can't understand her, she teaches well and helps me out when i need it. Ms Windstone (the other korean sub) is good at teaching too but she is scarily way to enthusiastic. its...scary y'know?
UGH Libby (a 'friend') she is one of the people who latch onto me for no reason. She is like a mirror image of me last year. possibly worse. okay i'll explain. Libby is new to the school as well. She never does any homework then comes to school and whines in my ear and askes for the answers. If i say no then she won't go away and she tries to find my work. I'm sorry to all those people last year who i latched onto. (sighmalee, Rach, Spazz, Toz) Anyway! so this is the exact dialogue.

Me: Hey have you done the science?
Libby: What science?
Me: the stuff we got yesturday.
Libby: Where are the answers?
Me: you gotta actually do the homework to get the answers:
Libby: Can i have yours?
Me: Nop.
Libby: Why not?
Me: *angry sigh* because it isnt really that hard.
Libby: YES IT IS!!! I'M SO STUPID! CAN YOU GIVE ME THE ANSWERS!??
Me: But you haven't even looked at them yet!!!!!!! how can you say they are hard!
Libby: PleeeEEeeeeaseeEeEEe!
Me: listen, try and do them and i will help you if you don't know the answers.
Libby: Alright

So i try to explain it, and she opens her book to a picture of Jhonny Depp or something and doesnt pay attension.

Me: do you get it?
Libby: no!!!
Me: but i jus..
Libby: Can i have your answers?
Me: *gives in* okay

So she copies my work WORD for WORD and i get in trouble for copying!!!! ARRGH!

ohh well.
At least Korean is going good! I love it lots! I might even be going to Korea on exchange in September!!! Though mum said i could go if i payed. So i just applied for a job a few minutes ago and hopefully i can get enough for the airfaires by september....and hopefully i can start working a little earlier than 14 nine months. ^^; ohhh well.

Uhh oh mums coming, not supposed to be on the net.
Seeya!

Okay! well what happened in my day today? Well today was better than the weekdays. I woke up at 12:00pm and then surfed the net for a bit then talked to everyone on bowie.net. Everybody there is so much nicer and i get along with them more than anoying people at school.
Then I decided to do some homework and update the site. This last week has been awful and confusing. It's half my problem
but what can i do? My best friends have just got back from 9 week camp to find out i'm gone and wont be coming back...what would you do? Well
obviously i snuck out and met them at midnight so i wouldnt be caught by mum. Then what happens? i get drunk and wake up hung over at nine thirty am and realise that school started at 8.
Then i crawl out of bed to find mum is still at home and not very pleased that i wasnt at school studying my ass off. So i get the day of ...day off? i did that much catch up work i nearly wet myself. Then what next? Foolish me! i went out again the next night and got drunk again! I woke up at five thirty am
this time so i could do some more school work so i would be ahead in class (surprisingly sober just to add!) . Then mum comes out and yells at me saying "why aren't you at school!" i look at my watch wondering
what on earth she was on (about) and realise it was eight thirty. So i got to school late but in time to miss p1 (sport) *dances* but i got my history project in on time so that means i won't
be in any trouble now.

So then what? I decide to go out again the next night promicing that i'd get back before one am. But who can resist energy drinks and fresh eggs to smash when someone else is playing? *sigh* you would have thought that i have learnt my lesson by now
but no. i stayed up till three thirty then woke up at seven (on time for school) And walked to school in the rain. I get to school and realise i forgot my other loccer combo and my blazer is stuck inside. (i'm so screwed) then go into class and accidently staple my finger to my assignment and get blood all over it. Then i pull it out
in assembely. Unluckily somebody looked down as i pulled it out and screamed. That got me in trouble. My hand was bleeding so much that it was getting all over my dress and jumper. The teacher wouldnt let me wash it either.<br><br>
Also proving to be the most unlucky day of this year, i have to put up with moving schools to a tiny icolated school for people my age only. Nobody i can interact with who have the same interests and thoughts i do. Like a constant headache. It is not just an emotional headache but a physical one too. I don't
understand why but as soon as i enter the school grounds, i get a massive headache. Mum thinks its stress (full stop) and won't even listen to me. All she cares about is that i do good in school and do philosophy or something that isnt art or bludge. Not that i want to do art at all. I suck at art (believe it or not) I should have failed it this term. I didnt hand in any
of my work and the work i did in class was of a grade two standard.<br><br> I am thinking of bargaining with mum to let me go back to my old school
but i'm not going to use that until term 3. My other resort is to move up a grade. Though i'm not sure if i'm ready for that. but i should at least be upgraded to year 10 Cad at least or something. I'm going to try do cad 1 2 for vce next year. I definately want to try to get a subject out of the way by year 11. Its sad to think that NOBODY in my year level is even thinking about
vce yet. I asked some people if they were going to try and they just have me a vacant look. Although MLC is a little stodgy and unfriendly, i felt more at home there than at any other school. Strathy makes me feel like i'm at primary school again.
Girls bicker with the teachers and even the respectable students don't get treated any different to the scum like Ariana who just waltzed into the school this year and made themselfs rudely compfy.
<br><br>I went to MLC on my day off to see everyone again. They all look so friendly. Even Ms Purcell said hi. Nope! she was right! You can't find friends like Jessie, Marion, Ness, Fandy, Hannah, Chu, Mitz and even Suzy. Man i'd die for someone like Suzy to be at my school. Eveyone is so....Trendy it makes me want to
vomit.
And just to top it off!  i just found out that my brother is dumping his Gf now outside. I can hear him yelling at her.
It reminds me of how i dumped Clinton. Ohh he deserved that good. Though....so does she. I hope its a change for the better. I
don't want Andrew being more evil. Though hopefully next time he'll bring someone who is willing to talk to me. That is sad. As much as i don't get along with him, i do feel bloody sorry for him...
Oh well i guess i'll stop ranting for this weekend and tell you about next week in 7 days *sigh* if only Mum would listen to me. I refuse to go to councelling.